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02 Aug: Movies Vs Books

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 08:55:56 GMT

Watched Harry Potter yesterday. Cant say i was disappointed. I didnt watch the trailer of the movie or expect much from it. I did read reviews though.

I cant say i am a Fan of Harry Potter. I like the books, yes. And the Half-Blood Prince was one of my favourite books.

The movie on the other hand was just snippets from the book. I think if people who only watch Harry Potter movies is missing a great deal of the whole story.

Tom Felton (Draco Malfoy) is GORGEOUS!! hahahaha..

i lost my train of thoughts just by looking at his handsome handsome face.

Any way i think i enjoy reading than watching movies.
Though i am looking for The Bone Collector because i am soooo fascinated by the book!!

I couldnt remember what Fadli and i was talking about but he said something about how a writer should be very very good in describing things. I never saw reading that way but after he said that i enjoyed reading much more. I know, its rather silly. its as if ive been reading blindly. Maybe i had. (and i cant help but fell so stupid around him *groan*)

AH.

Nana is with her father at the moment. Burn is sending her home soon. Its rather quiet at home. I cant help but think how damn boring life would really be if i didnt have nuryna. it would be living aimlessly.

Spoke to nana earlier this morning. She sounded chirpy and said she wants to come over again on Saturday. Burn hesitate to say ok. It would be the national day weekend and i want nana around, so i told him, we shall see how.

Nana do misses her father. So i guess i will let Burn pick her up once awhile, providing he answers my calls...

yea thats about it..

shall continue drooling at Draco Malfoy. HOT!

31 July: Croak croak

Fri, 31 Jul 2009 06:38:57 GMT

Firstly wanna wish Nizam a happy 22nd Birthday. Not that he reads the blog but to remind myself of future birthday. He was very sweet enough to put it on his facebook status for nana's birthday and ring me up asking to bring nana downstairs cause he has a present for her. He didnt but he did buy nana tidbits at 7eleven the next day and played with nana...

Pictures of Nuryna's 4th birthday is posted at facebook. View them here.

I am feeling very cranky and sour. I lost my voice on Wednesday. Very cute. Neighbour was asking how am i, how is nana and i croaked a, "we are fine thank you." Yesterday morning was quite okay, because i did sound pretty excited upon hearing a very good news from Silly.
But shortly afterwards, trying to do my normal morning routine in the office, i couldn't breathe. Jamal and Iris of course noticed i had turned pale and quiet. Quiet is strange enough for them to sense something was wrong. I finish my task and whispered that i had to see a doctor. Jamal accompanied me to the doctor seeing that i wasnt stable. Doctor didnt think i was getting an attack because i wasnt wheezing. (i dont know how he knew because he was checking my breathing very quickly.. everyone in the office is abit freaked out by the company's doctor.) He did ask to monitor cause i had all the Hini symptoms but i didnt have a fever.
Mom MMS me a pic of Nuryna wearing a mask (with her amused face) at Dr. Kai's. My daughter caught the flu too.
I went home and Little girl jumped out from mother's room exclaiming, "EH! YOU GOT HOME EARLY! WHY NEVER WORK?" so much for her being sick.. Really how do kids do this??

Both of us took our medicine and took a nap. Mother ordered pizza for dinner and i had to whisper to everyone.
i cant talk properly. I have to say word by word so people would understand. (happened at work and iris and joshua had to shush me and told me to save it till i got better. Even at one point i stop talking and said, "I. Sound. Like. A. Retard")

Then again the irritating mood had to be blame because of the bloody hormones. i wasnt feeling well already and i am mad for no apparent reason.

Thankful that mom closed one eye and let me rest and Nuryna was being very good. She was talking to me nicely and very manja-ly, "Mum-my.. can i have milk, please.." I had to whisper most of the time and by 9pm, she started to reply in whispers too. Very cute. and she was also my screamer. I told her to scream for my sister and she did so, "AAHHH DIIIKK!! AHHHDIIIKK!! OHHH AHDIIIKK.. DATANG SINI PLEASE! MAAAMAAA PANGGILLLL!"

OH.

When i am a customer i am a big asshole. Lily, Shazila and Wani are amused and abit annoyed about my "customer is always right" mood.
at one occasion, Lily and i was in Charles and Keithe (squeals!) and no one was attending to me. and i saw some of the sales person standing around checking their nails and what nots. It was crowded and almost most of the customer already had their shoes and trying them on.
I called to one, nicely.. ( i said Excuse me! ok) and asked if.. i could get a feedback form and a size 5 for this shoe, thank you. Lily at my side, hid her face.
I should start bringing a pen where-ever i go.

Oh. i believe in karma too. and i do send out a couple of compliment email to services i was pleased with. And yes, when i shop, i usually look at the Sales person's name tag, just in case.

I am a big asshole of a customer because i work in a customer service line, where YES, my customers is always right. I was taken aback when i was sent to do a course on how to handle irrate customers. But my sups assured it was just "one of the courses". it did do me good laa. and of course what you actually say matter. I dont face my customers which is a good point so i can dig my nose and "yes, mdm we do appreciate your feedback" and insert a polite corporate laughter for good measure.

If the line got cut off, i'd call back and apologize, "Sorry, sir. i think we got cut off..."
I was appalled when i was talking about booking stuff and the other line got quiet and then followed by a muffled, "hello, mdm are you there?" i said i was, and had to ask, is it my phone or your phone that is not working? The bloody CSO said to me, "My line is fine. i think its yours.." SOOO, i asked, "are you saying my phone is bad???" isnt there a better way to say perhaps my network is bad or just shove it and agree that yes there seem to be some problem with their line. Rather then blaming it is mine???

I am not saying that i am a prize talented CSO. Honestly, we all are human beings. But being rude as a service operator is damn bad. i do have my moods too. And believe me i have been sarcastic and grumpy to some of my customers.

I experienced the worst service while i was on the line with Dell Tech support!
1800 lines are the worst because it seem like they are not paid properly because of the free toll line!
and 1900 lines have the longest operator system which goes on and on about pressing which number for which service! i swear 1900 is the best customer service cause they all sound bloody chirpy. I mean why not, we are paying 40/min talking to them.

Firstly i made a report and wondered if i could do the "repairs" on my own. I told Eric (see i shall remember their names and bring them to hell), i am a technical geek so he have to guide me through.
He paused so many time i had to ask if he was still there.
I even had to ask if there is anything that can help to solve the problem! then he started saying no. then i prompt somemore then finally he said, yea he can send someone over to solve it.
I told him i had no CD-drive and of course he knew because i have given my express service tag.
He said, Yea.
PAUSE.
Ticked me off right there. "Soo.. i have to get one right?"
"yes." pause.
He was like that the whole time.
"Can you buy one for me then?"
he didnt expect me to say that. Obviously. and started to mutter that Dell doesnt supply External Cd-drive.. (do they? now i have to check) and that i have to get one myself. Maybe sim lim, he suggested.
Ok i calmed down and said good if they want to send someone over.
He said yes he will send someone over and he kept quiet again.
Honestly, i was beginning to think that he was chatting or even playing games while he was on the line with me!!
"wouldnt you be needing my address?"
YES. PAUSE
OOOOMMMGGGGG!!!!

So he took down my office address and wondered which area i was in. Fort Canning? Clark Quay? mohamed Sultan? Doobie Vot?
What was the last one again? i asked
He repeated all he areas.
AH. he wasnt local...

SETTLE ALREADY hor!

ok.. nvm. i will get the cd-rom drive. and Roz's husband said there is something that is spoilt inside and thats why he couldnt reinstall the software. i dont get it. but oh well..

so i called them again yesterday.. because i wouldnt be around in the office today. which is supposingly the appointment day.
I called to change address. and i was in my croaky voice ehhh

i was already expecting dissapointment because it usually would take 3 working days or shit like that to change appointments and such.

the guy who answered sound friendly and i was very pleased.
so i told him my problem and he said unfortunately if i want to change address, he has to push the date away. I totally understand that.
So it would be on Monday.
I asked other than the CD-rom drive, does the technician need anything else.. like a power point. because if he does, there is no way he could do it at my office. my office is way out of bound because of the services we are handling. its top notch confidential! and it wasnt like my father owning the company and me letting a stranger in to do my netty!

i explained to him the situation. and then he asked me again if i do want to change the address, it has to be on monday.

I calmly told him that is impossible because if he changed the address, i wouldnt be at home and if he pushes the date, i would be in the office so there is no point of changing the address. is there any, ANY possible way that he can try and see if he could change the address and do it tomorrow the original appointment date? I do understand because of the areas and such that it would be harder but if it is possible, could he try and do it for me?

My question was a straight Yes or No. COULD HE TRY?

He began to raise his voice trying to explain about the areas and that if it is already booked there is no way he could change the place. He said something about the parts already being at the Dhoby Ghaut area so changing it would be a problem.

Didnt i say i understand the bloody situation? And i was like, EH, does this mean that the other areas didnt have this "parts"? thats outrageous!! It was a simple problem.. Most prolly there is something wrong with my hard ware. or worst to worst a motherboard problem. And all the technician to do is REBOOT the fucking netbook or replace my motherboard or my hardware, right?!

Isnt Hardware or the motherboard an important and easy part to get?!

if they didnt have a service centre in singapore, most probably there would be one fucking office somewhere in singapore that is handling all the technician problems. So even if i do change addresses what fucking problem do they face? its not as if they have outlets that they need to change appointments with. I would still stick to my day and my time but only a change of address, WHAT!

He went on and on. and i got pissed so i said, "HOLD IT!" in my croaky voice,"WHY ARE YOU RAISING YOUR VOICE TO ME?"

he didnt apologise but repeated what he said. this, by the way you customers out there, is a CSO biggest mistake. The operator would try to make you listen to them but they are using the same reason in another sentence. Because they wont do it for you.

I told him, look i understand the situation. ok. fine if you cant change the address. Just push the date to monday and i will try to see what i can do.

He asked me again if i want to change the address for monday.

OMG is he dumb?

SO i repeated what he said and what my problem was. "if you changed the address for monday there would be no use because i cant let your technician to come in my office. and since YOU cant change my address for tomorrow, just let it be!"
I was sooo tempted to use fuck, fucking, bloody for every third word i said. I dont believe in using crude words, wouldnt wanna sound unproffesional now, do i? (if i was so careful in my everyday life like i was on phone, i would be a very nice person)

So he changed it on monday and asked again about the address, i told him calmly, just let it be and i will discuss with the appointment side for the address and timing. Asked for his name and he gave me his last name, ONG. ONG WHAT? he spelt out his name and i figured out no use writing because i surely know the whole conversation was being recorded, "for training purposes." (which obviously meant if any complaints that come in they will investigate to see if it was their mistake or the customers being troublesome)

Later in the afternoon i called them up again and decided to just do it at home and let my mom look at it.
i think the CSO have marked me a big fat asterix on my service code.. because the greeting was friendly until i mention my tag code... HAH!

well i feel better now. and yes.. i am a nightmare as a customer... Look at it this way, i already fucking know how most of you people work. EARGH!

28 July : IV

Tue, 28 Jul 2009 16:04:56 GMT

happy happy birthday to my pecious gem, Nuryna!

still cant believe how time flies. it have been four years since i become a mother!

she celebrate her birthday in school and thank you all for the well wishes..

it has been four years of new experience, exhilarating yet nothing as pleasurable as a gift of a sweet daughter.

as i was looking at the pictures taken in school (i had to work... unfortunately, my leaves are better saved in case of emergencies as i learnt earlier this year.......) i got abit freaked out how similar Nuryna looked to me. well to my side of the family.

it does have a logical explanation that first and fore mostly, she is my daughter (DUH) and that she spends majority of her time with my family. when you spend alot of your time with a person you tend to be alike in that person. for example, with your boyfriend. alot of people would claim how alike you and your boyfriend look and that "you are meant for each other". The fact is (really) the both of you spent alot of time together and that you start to mimic or follow your partners move unconsciously.

i was looking at a picture of nana, (pictures upload later cause i dont have the patience to upload at the current moment, its almost one a.m) she looked like me. physically, she had everything i have. The nose (which all of our cousins would joke about and feel quite offended if someone made fun of), her smile (tight lipped. very conscious of the surrounding), her hair (hate to admit it but i did have the exact curls), her round face and to the awkwardness of her body language that was made, the solemn look on her face that i make if i dont like something and refuse to say it loud because i might hurt the other party.. She is an exact photocopy. no. make it an exact SCAN of a mini me. no editing, nothing... EXACT CARBON COPY.

all in all she pretty much enjoyed the attention she was getting. but mummy feel pretty bad that i wasnt around for her to tell off to her classmates tat HEY THIS IS MY MOTHER. (not that the kids will remember butttt for me it is such a big deal)

She will be turning FIVE.... Iris just said it out loud and i was like HUH WHAT?
How come nobody told me that babies grow up so fast? is there a warning sign at their belly button i didnt read clearly? BEWARE: GROW AT THE BLINK OF EYE.

I hate to repeat this. It has been a default phrase for teenage mother (it can be our anthem or something) but.. shall say it anywayyy... I never regret my decision. She's definitely a gift from God. It has been tough but NOTHING comes close to the satisfaction of seeing YOUR child grow...

of course i wish for the best.. and still attempting to get a Gold award for Best Mother. Cant deny this, there is more hurdles for me to go through. My own mother is still having trouble installing principles into me....

I can do this.

2009 have been a year for Nana and i.

ps. NANA is Nuryna Aqilah.. gettit? N A N A.. hahaha.. i know. why even bother? her names consist of 12 letters.. tsk........

26 july: Creativity at its best

Sat, 25 Jul 2009 15:46:26 GMT

On Fridays, your child will be bringing home his/her Letter of the Week as part of Parents and Child Activity". Please help your child decorate. You may use ANY colouring material. We strongly encourage parents to be involved in your child's learning experience.

I thought this was a good idea. Especially Working parents. That we still can spend time with our kids.
I was very pleased with this idea. so the first word was A. Nuryna and i had fun colouring it.
the outcome of the colouring FREAKED my mother out. she says its HIDEOUS and i should be embarassed to show this to her teacher. While other parents would be decorating their child homework with glitters and very nice colouring, Nuryna's will be UGLY.
We made thumbprints to shape out like an apple and i let her scribble. And below i wrote AQILAH.

I got into a quarrel with mom about this.

I was telling her that this is a part of the children learning experience that Nuryna plays a part in decorating!
Mother was telling how she had spent her time nicely decorating our homework when we were kids, showing how she takes part in the learning experience. I remember my dad making a big fuss to do our art piece. He was more creative. My mom (like me) gave up too easily. They really wanted our art piece to be on display, which it never happen okay...
I told her BULLS, how is the kid suppose to learn then!
Again she says i should be ashamed. The other kids are going to hand-over nicely decorated homework and nana's is just a mess.. "Up to you, she's your kid"
Being hard-headed, i let nana bring it to school.

For the letter B, we decorated with glitter. I have to admit this one is ugly.

But i was still adamant about letting her decorate and bringing it to school. Mother came to me and told me that Nana is upset because all her friends showed off very pretty pictures. and i was telling her that by letting the parent do it the child will not learn ANYTHING!

The letter C, sister got to decorate. then a few more letters, MY parents didnt let me touch it.

My dad's idea of nicely decorated.
So her homework has become a silent war between my parents and me.
I let her colour G and let her draw a girl too. i think its very cute.

i let her colour again and i did the touch up.... My father hyperventilated when he saw the mess....

Obviously dad got the twitches for the simplicity of the colouring and the decoration...

For the letter N, mother finally contributed an idea to use fabric. so we begin cutting and pasting them...
it was just the fabric on the paper.. the next time we saw the homework, dad had properly glued the fabric and even manage to put "engraving" stickers on it... (the smaller letter is satin!)

it was nice.. BUT it still didnt got onto the display.
To really make my parents please, i bought thin paper wrappers and decided to decorate it on my own. O is for orange. i let nana put glitters and spread it to make it look like an orange. This time, parents were very happy with results...

and i didnt even put much effort....
Finally they let me do her homework... -___-
I was feeling rather crafty last week so i drew Pandas for the letter P and coloured it with crayon, i didnt even let nana colour.. it was MY art piece..
But guess what?? DAD touch it up by PAINTING!

OMG! he just have to overdo me!! but i have to admit it does look nicer.. one of the nicer workpiece...

this week though i let her colour because i was so sick..
I saw what she did it to it and almost cried.. My dad will have a heart attack! It had so many colours in one letter!
Nana plead to me not to show my mom. (really!)
SO i touched it up.. we use our fingers to paint since dad hid the paint brushes...

i have to hide this from dad..... i think this is rather.... creative..... simple and creative..

Do you as a parent let your child do their homework and guide them?
Or like me, do it together and make it look presentable?

I know its kind of silly to be so serious about colouring. Afterall its just nursery!!

Or are you like my parents? you want the best for your child. You dont want your child to be mocked about her own art work?

My parents have a point of course but i want Nana to put in her effort too. and i want Nana to be able to say, "i DID this" not because i made her say but she really did colour and she really did dip her fingers into paint and painted...

Is it better off to hide your child away from the feeling of being embarrassed or just let your child face it?

Young Mula Baby I say he so sweet

Thu, 23 Jul 2009 17:34:17 GMT

I dont grasp the concept of falling in love so fast in such a short period of time.
I dont believe in love at first sight. (thats just sweet talk, honey)
I am neither here nor there about love. I'll admit i need the constant attention and it does get lonely sometimes.

I want a lover who is a best friend.

I want a diamond ring too. HAHAHA. JOKE.

Marriage to me is like a taboo.

A relationship means restricted freedom, stop being selfish, the clapping, the jazz and all that.

Is there a time limit for love?

Forever is just a word. No one lives forever, so you cant love one forever.

The best cure for a hangover is another drink; the best heart cure is to fall in love again.

Its a continuous cycle that we all never got tired off. Funny how emotions work. Like a garden with the butterflies in the tummy, fireworks when night comes around and flowers blooming and sun shinning so bright.. The most loveliest feeling is to be loved.

Its a job. You gotta work hard and it will all pay off... It will all be worth it.

No one can really explain this silly feeling but everyone feels it.

21st July : At KKH

Tue, 21 Jul 2009 14:42:52 GMT

It is so fucking cold in this fucking room! i am shivering as i am typing this.

Nana is here for her Sleep study. So we are staying here for the night.

For what i had paid, we had our own room (DUUH! it is afterall a sleep study, we have to have our own room).

Really pretty room too.. We have our own TV with HBO, Cartoon Network, Mom On Demand. which actually to tell you the truth doesnt really matter to me since i bought books to read to Nana and Netty to accompany me through the night..

Nana have been very cooperative while the doc put wires ALL OVER her body. She has 6 wires on her head, 8 on her face and etc!

Look at her LEGS!! Like boss like that!! Doc said she was well behaved and cooperative for a four year old!
And when doc asked to sing a song, she sang ABC so well, that i got teary eyed!
My baby!!

She is fast asleep now. It didnt take too long to make her fall asleep because she didnt have her nap after school just now. Mom and i fed her alot before the doctor comes.

Dont worry all! it may look like she is suffering, but it is really fine and its just a checkup (which burnt a BIG hole in my pocket and dried out all of savings away *cries)

Mother and i checked for cakes at Prima Deli just now. And she said we should just get a cake and let her cut it in school. I told her i cant get any leave. She said Nevermind, i will send the cake and take photos for you to see..

Sometimes my mother doesnt GET it that i want to be there! and there she go blaming me about not spending enough time with nana.

i am shivering. i guess i shall join nana in bed and play games till i fall asleep. TAKE CARE ALL!

20th July : 8 more days

Mon, 20 Jul 2009 14:25:16 GMT

Its a week to Nuryna's Birthday!

It has been FOUR years!
I AM A MOTHER! omg!

*clears throat*

I have no plans this year.. I was so disappointed last year. So this year, we will do it MY way.

The last minute way.

I dont have any party plans.

Nana wants a Dora cake... I dont know WHY because she hardly watch Dora. (maybe at granny's house)
I want a special cake for her but i still cant decide or afford them special cakes.....

I remember my operations telling me last year that why the big fuss, she wouldnt remember anyway. Cruel way to put it but quite true.

Sick of this competition amongst other mummies for having the BETTER party for their children.

Ok.

No body said it was a competition. But dont you feel it is like that?
That somehow you have to have a better party to "show" that you are THE better parent.

Fuckit. I might just bring Nana out for a dinner for the both of us.

Fine, parents, my aunts and my cousins would make a big fuss in getting her a cake, so that will be it. The same people who came last year can just come my house (NOT my room like Nana suggested) and have their cake and eat it. (pun intended)

Maybe when she is older and have her own friends and what nots, then we can start throwing parties with games and whatnots.

Meanwhile, I have to think about what to say to her teachers tomorrow.
Starting with, "I am Aqilah's mother.. Not sister... No.. The one who picks her up from school is her GRANDFATHER...." (JOKE)
Have to find out FOR myself if Little Girl really have not been cooperative in class. And PRAY i do not start being a bitch or God forbids, be scared of the teacher. HEE

As usual, dudettes, im updating my tweets every now and then..

good night xanga!

15 July : Apple and Tree

Tue, 14 Jul 2009 16:42:41 GMT

The apple doesnt fall far from the tree, right??

Mother text me that Little girl have not been participating in class. Teacher asked her to colour, she refuses to colour. And when she does, she will scribble and that's it.
AND..

ohkaay i just re-read mother's message.. i think i over reacted?

WHAT HAPPEN WAAAAAAAAAAASSS....

Kid scratch Nana and Nana bit the kid's cheek.
Mother got called up and "You (me) better give ur daughter attention that she needs"

I asked what happen? And mother said Nana is suppose to say sorry but refuses and kicked up a fuss...

I have a maternal suspect who is the kid. (IS IT THE KID WHO KEEP BULLYING MY POOR GIRL? the one who poked Nana's eye and pulled her hair?!!)

But anyway.. what this Mummy reacted was... well what i suppose a normal mother would do.

I broke down.
I got so disoriented after reading the text message.
I cried and beat myself up for being such a bad mother.
It didnt help that I know the short temper comes from ME.
And there is no one else to blame her upbringing but to myself.
I blame myself.
For not being a good mother.

Apparently good is never good enough.

and sitting in my room now... with a much clearer thoughts....

i cant really decide if it is really because i am not a good mother..
or by the fact that MY own mother said those things to me??

in a perfect family with a Mummy, Daddy, House, Car etc. A parent, even 35yr old might have the same problems as i do. Confused and lost about bringing up a little one.

What more, me???

see how i have ways to actually turn this things around, shrug it off and make it positive, amaze me sometimes. but its cruel in more ways than one... mom always say that i keep things too much inside and one day it explode, it explode BIIIGGG time. now that is another story altogether.

I am after all human.

I worry alot about Nana. Like any normal parent would do.

Hello and welcome to Parenthood: Phase 3.

Would like to take this opportunity to thank people because of my sudden emotional out break. (in no specific order whatsoever)

Shazila : For answering the phone on the 2nd ring and comforting me that i shouldnt blame myself. Assuring me that it wasnt like Nana to go around on a Biting Rampage.

Iris : For patting my back, handing me tissues and actually finding where i hide at work to cry my eyes out. And afterwards to make me laugh.

Joshua : For being a clown he is and breaking the tension in me.

Jamal : For being a good understanding TL and letting me off being human to cry and not asking too many questions about my emotional outbreak.

Wanie : For calling me 3 (4?) times and scolding me, "ILLA CAN YOU PLEASE TELL ME ALREADY WHAT IS GOING ON AND STOP MAKING ME WORRIED?" (and congrats cuzz for getting Senior S.A now!)

Fadli : For (trying?) ignoring the fact that i went on and on and on about how an idiot he is. Didnt get nasty or sarcastic when we meet up and actually making my day and making me laugh...

Arab : for i guess being comforting by saying i am better than his friend (Burn DUH) and that i am strong

Huda : For missing us.

Random: The Performer

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 09:11:18 GMT

Extroverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving

People-oriented and fun-loving, they make things more fun for others by their enjoyment. Living for the moment, they love new experiences. They dislike theory and impersonal analysis. Interested in serving others. Likely to be the center of attention in social situations. Well-developed common sense and practical ability.

ESFPs are fun and delightful to be with. They live for the moment, and know how to make the most of each moment. They are genuinely, warmly interested in people, and love to make others happy. They're usually very kind-hearted and generous, and are always going out of their way to do something nice for someone. Their affection is simple, straight-forward and honest. They dislike theory and complexities. They often resist forming relationships which require them to function on a high Intuitive or Thinking level. They prefer for things to be light and happy, although their warmth and affection runs deep. Their potential downfall is the tendency to live entirely for the present moment, and therefore to sometimes be unaware of the direction that their relationship is heading, or to be easily distracted from long-term commitments. (blink)

ESFP Strengths

● Enthusiastic and fun-loving, they make everything enjoyable

● Clever, witty, direct, and popular, people are drawn towards them

● Earthy and sensual

● Down to earth and practical, able to take care of daily needs

● Artistic and creative, they're likely to have attractive homes

● Flexible and diverse, they "go with the flow" extremely well

● They can leave bad relationships, although it's not easy

● Try to make the most of every moment

● Generous and warm-hearted

ESFP Weaknesses

● May be frivolous and risky with money OPPS!!

● Tend to be materialistic

● Extreme dislike of criticism, likely to take things extremely personally

● Likely to ignore or escape conflict situations rather than face them<< QUITE TRUE!

● Lifelong commitments may be a struggle for them - they take things one day at a time

● Don't pay enough attention to their own needs

● Tendency to neglect their health, or even abuse their bodies HAHAHAHAA

● Always excited by something new, they may change partners frequently OPPS!!

ESFPs as Lovers

"To love means to open ourselves to the negative as well as the positive - to grief, sorrow, and disappointment as well as to joy, fulfillment, and an intensity of consciousness we did not know was possible before." -- Rollo May

ESFPs embrace their love relationships in a big way - similar to the way they approach their lives in general. They love to be in love, and will try to make the most of each moment. They take things on a day-by-day basis, and are uncomfortable thinking too much about the future (OH SNAP!), or making plans far in advance. For this reason, ESFPs are not natural long-term commitment people. They may feel tremendously committed on a day-by-day basis, but they do not naturally plan for their futures.

This commitment issue is a potential pitfall for the ESFP. Many people of this type overcome this potential weakness, and become involved in truly satisfying, lifelong relationships. Others do not address this weakness, and move from relationship to relationship without forming real commitments, convincing themselves that this is what they truly want.

Sexually, the ESFP is a very earthy and sensual individual who seeks and enjoys intimate contact with their partners. Living in the here-and-now, they thoroughly embrace and enjoy the experience with all five senses. They are generous and warm, and highly interested in making their partners happy.

ESFPs tend to be materialistic, and somewhat caught up in "what others think" of them. They should take care that this doesn't interfere with their personal relationships, since many of the others types will not be able to relate to their perspectives on these matters.

ESFPs do not handle conflict well at all. They take any sort of criticism very personally, and consider it to be a general indictment of their character. They may react with anger and harsh words which they would later like to take back.(OH NOs!) ESFPs would do themselves a favor if they would come to realize that criticism can be looked at constructively, rather than destructively. If they can hear criticism without feeling personally threatened, the ESFP will have come a very long way towards greatly improving the strength and health of their relationships.

ESFPs are extremely literal and concrete when communicating. They say things in a very direct, abrupt manner, and can sometimes even unintentionally seem quite harsh. They like things to be communicated to them in a similar, concrete fashion. They dislike theory and abstraction, and will frequently misunderstand the gist of a communication if it is not communicated in a factual, present-tense manner. Discussions regarding the future or the past are not the ESFP's strong suit, and in fact they're likely to misconstrue future-looking statements as something that needs immediate attention. When they discover that the discussion is not regarding an immediate concern, they become disinterested.

ESFPs are in general very warm and giving people, with simple needs and demands from their partners. They just want to be happy, and want to bring happiness to others. They are energetic and popular individuals who will liven up the social life of the couple, and keep many new experiences on the horizon.

Although two well-developed individuals of any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, ESFP's natural partner is the ISTJ, or the ISFJ. ESFP's dominant Extraverted Sensing function is best matched with a personality that is dominated by Introverted Sensing.

ESFPs as Parents

The ESFP's "go with the flow", fun-loving attitude will extend to the raising of their children. They are warm and affectionate parents, and are great for giving practical care to their children. They like to do things in a big way, and enjoy big families.(FAINTED)

The ESFP will freely give love and affection to their children, but they frequently have a problem with defining a structured, orderly environment (HEHX) for them, and they may rely on their mates in this regard. Ultimately, the ESFP likely believes that too much structure is not a healthy thing for anyone, and so they're unlikely to enforce a highly structured or disciplined environment. If this trait is strongly present in the ESFP, and is not counteracted by their mate's perspective, it could be considered a potential pitfall for the ESFP parent. Children need some structure which can be depended upon as they grow up. (HEHX)

The ESFP is very practical and concrete in their daily needs, and are usually quite good at taking care of their children's daily needs. Although their approach to life is frequently "ad-lib", and their lives are almost always extremely full of exciting events, the ESFP is very good at juggling many things at once, which makes them especially good at handling the various issues which come up in a large family.

ESFPs tend to have difficulty with the authoritarian role, preferring to be their children's friend. (BLINK) However, they do expect to be given respect and to be obeyed when necessary, and will fall into the role of parental authoritarian at times. This can be frustrating for some children, especially those with strong Judging tendencies, as they will not know what to expect from their ESFP parent.

ESFPs are usually remembered fondly by their children for being fun-loving, upbeat, and affectionate, although somewhat scattered. (ROFL)

ESFPs as Friends

ESFPs are highly enthusiastic and effervescent. They are usually very popular, because people are naturally drawn towards them. They get such genuine delight and enjoyment from experiences which they encounter in life, and they love nothing better than to draw a crowd of people along with them for the sheer fun of it. ESFPs try to turn every day into a party, and they're usually successful at doing so.

ESFPs are highly valued for their ability to have a good time, and for their genuine warmth and interest towards people. They are extremely in tune with their five senses, and may be prone to overload them with too much alcohol, food, or drugs. They get along with all sorts of people, although they're not interested in spending time with people who they find boring, or who expect the ESFP to communicate with them on an Intuitive or Thinking level. Some people may disapprove of the ESFP's fun-oriented lifestyle. Others may be put off by their very straight-forward and blunt speaking style.

The ESFP is likely to especially enjoy spending time with other Extraverts who have the Feeling preference, although they may have a special place in their hearts for people of any preference.

12 July : The Fallen

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 08:16:29 GMT

Iris and i teased and made a fool of Transformers. We both thinks that it is stupid for cars to fight. And all the transforming.. and the annoying sound they made, "Krick Krick Krack *some robot noises*

Jamal and Joshua though on the other hands are Fans. Jamal even had a toy on his desk....

So we had to listen to them going on and on about robots before the Transformers : The Revenge of the Fallen premier. Joshua watched it first and he wasnt too happy about the movie because he was expecting too much of it.

I asked Joshua to EXPLAIN to me whats so cool about it. He got all excited and said, "I am going to write it down and let you read it," I smiled and he continued on, "I am going to write it in MALAY!" (My colleagues are full of craps like this)

I told him to forget about writing and tell me about it.. He started about telling me about Cybertron, Autobots and Decepticons. What they all are and stuff... I listened intently and then i started to fiddle with my phone.. He got upset, "THREE MINUTES! three minutes and i lost you.. Great. I am not going to tell you anymore about it" I decided to read about it, i got bored..

Shrugging, iris and i decided we are going against the boys and making fun of transformers.. Iris would mock them with the KRICK KRICK KRACKING noise. And when Joshua said they were funny parts in the movies and i asked, "Like what? They cant start the car/ the engine runs out?"

When Fadli asked me "When going to watch Transfomeeeerrrrssss??" (QWERTY made him into an exaggerating texter. I'm a tad annoyed because the ALAAAAA, youuuuuu, noooooo, laaaaa job should be done by only ME)
I declared to them i have to watch transformers now and i told iris i might enjoy the movie because of the visuals.. and perhaps looking at Megan Fox.

Fadli kept looking and asking if i have fallen asleep yet.. SHOCKINGLY, i was wide awake and fascinated with the Bots. And thanks to Joshua, i know a little about it by then..

and i told Jamal, " I AM SOOO GOING TO MOLEST YOUR PRIME!" (which sounds so wrong)

All in all it was a nice movie. Since i am not a Fan, it was fine... Jamal agreed that the sucky part was that we cant tell the bots apart. and also said, aniways, why I was SOOOO dissapointed is cos I'm such a big transformers fan that I know all the myth, etc that it was sad to see the movie turn out so bad. (here i am thinking, what myths? They are fiction for crying out loud. but i decide to save it because tomorrow i am going to get shitted on for dissing their bots.)

Next, I DONT CARE, WE HAVE TO WATCH HARRY POTTER! I live up with Transformers now you people have to live up to MY wizard fantasy.. (Harry, show me your magic stick!!)
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Today is Mama & Nana day. I almost had a hissy fit at the playground just now. Not exactly at nana but at the children there.

I always thought the playground is abit like Life itself where you can meet many people and co-operate in such small space. You can be nice but the other party may be a bitch and well, you just have to live with that. Sometimes you cant get your way, you HAVE to share, be considerate. You can actually see who is the Leader of the pack, who are the Followers and who are the Entrepreneurs (the mind your own buisness kids)

Nana is an Entrepreneur. I dont know whether its because she has been hanging around with too much adults that she doesnt know how to mix with the kids. I warned her if she go, "Mams" one more time we are going home. I didnt feel like slidding and climbing today. I told her to say Excuse me if someone is blocking the slide or if she wants to pass through.

And my role there was as a Mother. I had switched on my maternal instinct and flinched everytime she starts to climb with visuals of my girl falling and blood and breaking bones.. But i am not so panic-y so if she fell, i would ask her to get up and move along. Its a jungle out there, be tough.

Came along a group of chinese kids. The oldest was perhaps an 8 year old boy. He opened his mouth and he had an accent. Like he been overseas. I thought, "Oh poor little rich ya-ya boy with most probably parents who gave him everything"

It rained last night so the playground was littered with leaves and branches. And PRB (poor rich boy) saw a big branch and started to use it as gun.
1. I like the imagination
2. I like how kids shouldnt be disgusted by nature.
3. GUN?! too much tv. (not that i mind)

He put it on his shoulder and walk around, i assume he imagined it as a Bazooka. He saw more big sticks and started throwing at the other kids. Not delibrately trying to hurt anyone but my maternal instinct kicked in.
What if it hit one of the kids?? (for sure, if it hits MY kid, i will have the honour of hitting him back)

I didnt want to interfere the children play but it was starting to be dangerous. and i have a feeling PRB will not handle my telling off very well either. And i just MIGHT MIGHT scold him full of things an 8 year old shouldnt be listening. That or scream my heads off.

I took the sticks and threw it off at a tree and it snapped... He stared at me. I stared back. I watched every move he made and he gave me a look that says, "Oh and what are you going to do about me playing with branches"
I gave him a look that says, I am THE adult here and dont mess with me, punk.
He was still playing but still glancing at me. I had my eyes on him all the time.

Nana was the youngest so i suppose she thinks of the others as the BIGGER cooler ones. The If-they-can-so-can-i. She came to me with a (feeble-looking) stick and i said, "You can play with that. BUT YOU DONT THROW IT AT OTHER KIDS" (stressing on that) She humbly said, "Ok mams. But they throw-throw" "Oh they are naughty kids and it will hurt if it hits you"
I knew it was wrong to call other people kids as naughty but it was too late to take back and Nana only understood that term.

Usually by now, i would tell nana its time to go home but OH NO! I will stay and scare the kids away..
I suceed.

I was still unsatisfied because i soo wanted to chase him around with the damn branch and see how he like that...

There you go. My parental "skills". I have a temper of an ogre.(SHREK!)
One of the reasons i would love to have a boy is that i can smack him and reason that he HAVE TO BE A MAN! TOUGH THE DUDE UP. SHAPE UP SHAPE UP! STOP CRYING SISSY!

hehx.

thats about it. gotta clean my room now..